Where is he at now?

I keep asking Jan "where is he at now?" What I mean by this is, in a few months when we are doing this, where will the baby be? We were sitting on the couch downstairs watching Greys Anatomy, and I ask "where is he at now?" I guess I am just trying to get an idea what life will be like in a few months (actually 6 weeks).

I love that Jan has had experience with all of this before. It helps tremendously. What doesn't help... uncertainty.

I am getting anxious, nervous, excited and scared all at the same time. I feel at moments that I can't wait another day to meet him. Then there are moments that I don't think I am ready, or that I know what to do as a full time mom.

I am a planner, and a bit of a control freak. I don't like not having any control over situations, especially ones of such huge significance! I have switched my prayers to him staying nice and comfy in the breach position so that the Dr will just plan a C Section. That way we have a day and time that we know he will arrive. This not knowing if, and when, and where is driving me nuts!

I just want him to be healthy and "normal". I want him to be a good baby. Not one that turns red and purple from wailing at the top of his little lungs for hours on end. He is such a good baby right now....

On a different note... my baby shower was wonderful. It was low key and i really enjoyed just hanging out with friends and family. We had it in a courtyard outside my cousins "tavern".













I was exceptionally exhausted that day with lack of sleep and emotions running high. I loved sitting with my loved ones and talking about my little mans soon to be arrival. We didn't measure, smell, or taste anything goofy. No games, just decorating a few onsies and patches for a keepsake quilt I plan to make down the road. Thank you to all who came to the shower, and thank you for all the gifts for our little guy. We are blessed and so is he. He will be a spoiled little boy!

We hope you are all doing well, and enjoying the change in seasons. I know I am! I have been cooking a lot. Chili, banana bread, cabbage burgers, apple crisp, oh my! Jan says I am trying to find things to do since my nesting started so early. I have ran out of things to do in preparation!

I will keep everyone posted on the weeks to come. When we find out more on the baby and his position we will have more of an idea of whats ahead for his arrival!

Take care!