19 weeks along. I have prayed, and cried and hoped all was well. So many things going though my head during this time. I want to prepare for the worst and hope for the best. I don't want to consume myself with negativity, but I don't want to be naive to what can happen. So I pray. A lot.
Prayers were answered.
I have been in lakes, lodged a fishing pole into my gut a few too many times setting the hook.. I have ran a weed whacker for 30 minutes at a time. I have had dogs jumping on me. I have had a glass of wine (gasp). I have had moments of crying spells, and moments of hysterical laughter.
Now I (we) have news of a healthy baby boy growing inside me. Despite all my worries, he is resilient, like most buns cooking in the oven.
The weather has been amazing, which helps my mood on the days where I feel like I am getting a bit more clumsy and a lot less helpful around the house! I can still clean and things, but lifting and other tasks are getting tough. My core is now a lump of baby! He doesn't help with the whole balance and strength thing.
Speaking of lifting.. we moved stuff around in the house. We are getting things ready for the baby room and the guest room. Soooo that means we will be accepting helpers (errr guests) via over nighters weekender's down the road!
We set up the crib and started organizing. I got a bit choked up when the crib and changing table were done and Morgan brought in her cabbage patch doll to pretended it was the baby. I can't imagine not having Morgan around to celebrate all this with.
We were counting down the days till the ultrasound. We were looking forward to seeing if it was a girl or boy. I let it be know for a while I was really hoping for a little Jan.. but ultimately we wanted a perfectly healthy growing baby.
We went in for the ultrasound and I was excited and nervous. The second she popped the scanner on my belly I looked at the screen and HOLY BALLS! Is that what I think it is!!?? It was a hoot! The first thing you see is our baby, mind you not a modest baby at all. He was showing it all off, as the tech would say "there is no doubt there is there?" We saw for the first time, our son.
We watched him move and groove for about 25 minutes. I was just amazed the detail. He karate chopped me, he wiggled his toes at my bladder. He even fell asleep on a artery running beside the womb. He was comforted by the sound and feeling of my heart beat. His little head rose and feel with my heart beat.
I have been concerned about not feeling him move, but the way he is sitting and the way my uterus is positioned, I cant feel much. There is no nerves where he is at. He basically is cushioned by a big pancake, so I wont feel him till he is bigger.
And bigger he is getting! The tech let us know we will be keeping an eye on his size. He is in his 75th percentile for size. Big head, big belly, big baby. If he continues to be on the bigger side, Dr wont let us go over due date. Which is good news :)
Thank you all for the prayers, and support. We feel so blessed, as Jan says "It all feels so perfect.. like walking on air."
